happy meal!

Look at it, it's still happy to see me..

Is it happy because its purpose in life has been realized?or is it only 'I' who thinks that way?Justifying how this creature has made it way to my plate?

Is there really a Great Chain of Being as mentioned by an author named Pepper? Or is this really limited to the Christian faith?
If so, using this argument that we are superior to plants, animals, etc, it is but natural for us to consume them?
But then again, it will also mean that we are to serve as inferior beings fit for Seraphim, Cherubim, and angels's consumption.

And so as the anthrocentric beings that we are, we will scrap that belief.

As a result, we are now again left to ponder if it is morally right to eat other living beings.are we not also considered as predators just like our primitive brothers?

Or are we to argue that life really is 'survival of the fittest'? If so, why are we helping 'less fit' individuals? Is it because we unite and fight as a specie?Or is it because of our innate gift: altruism?it may be so, but then, why are we still cruel to each other?

Going back to our main corcern, should we continue eating our furry, four paws walking friends?

I say no! Be healthy, and live to 100yrs!
A century of pale, tasteless foods. A century of non-festive holidays and birthdays!
Hmmm, look! My pork steak is happy to see me.

write, right?

i can't write...

i can't seem to think of anything to write about.
it's not an issue of lack of topics or subjects,
because a lot of things have been popping in my mind lately.

should i write about them? shall i not?

maybe, it all comes down to the relevance of such issues,
and/or sheer level of senselessness.
fact is, i can't seem to focus to one.

lately, that's how i see things - disarrayed.
and it seems that that's the problem, also, of most people.

we tend to overdo things.
to include unneccesary aspects to an otherwise noble endeavor.

why can't we just keep things simple?
why can't we stick to what is needed?

why set rules that's irrelevant to what you do?
why waste time & energy exerting extra effort that contribute nothing to your cause?
why restrict yourself doing things you love if abstaining from it has no effect whatsoever to what you do?

why can't i just write?
why can't i just write about those things bugging my mind?

with this posts, i have erased paragraphs that i deem important..
just because of the consequences they might bring..

there's a lot i want to convey, so why can't i write them?
why am i restricting myself in doing what i was set to do?
am i overthinking things now? should i not restrict myself?

just like my mind right now, this post is also disarrayed.

i want to write.
i should set my priorities straight.
do what i think is right.

exhale.. inhale..

...... exhale ......

seems like i've been holding that breath ever since my first day at school.
the moment i entered that kindergarten classroom.

i can still remember the very first test i took.
sitting in a pizza-shaped table & chair.
the proctors catering to a handful of cry babies.

and just this afternoon with one of my courses' card distribution,
the memory of those tears resounds...

yes, it seems like that memory from a distant decade,
was really hardly eons ago.

i wonder... how long will i be able to hold that thought?
longer than i can hold my breath, i hope...
it puzzles me how vivid one memory can linger in my head,
while some pictures wound up as a breeze - cold and distant
sometimes i can feel it coming back, but i could never really grasp when they pass.

i can't help it.
i'm feeling a little nostalgic.
i feel relieved that i have passed all my subjects,
but there's still a part of me that wants to stay..

i know i can't turn back time.
and i don't want to be stagnant.
just like how improbable it is for me to intake the same air that have passed through my system...

now, at this moment, i can't think of anything else to do,
but to again, enter the scene, this unpredictable stage,
and once more, with all might, thrust into the limelight, and...

...... INHALE ......

(what to do?)

sigh!

it's monday tomorrow..
deadline for my last paper.
and after that,
nothing left for me but to head home.

wish it would be that easy.
wish i wouldn't have to worry about the ccard giving..
hehe.. only one subject left,
and after that, my mind can finally rest!

hahaha...
that sounded as if there's nothing else to occupy myself huh?
humdrum? i don't think so..

i wonder what i'd be doing the next couple of months?

i don't know..
maybe i can focus more on reading and writing..
have themes that doesn't necessarily need approvals..
of professors.. editors.. spectators?!?

i dunnow..
maybe it's all planned up after all.
well, just those weeks before the actual march..

sigh!

hmm, maybe i'll enroll in some classes..
take up some lessons - gym, driving, dance.. anything..
hmm, i wonder if there's any interesting workshops back home..

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i dunnow, i have nothing much to do i guess..
great.. haha...

any suggestions? greatly appreciated...

end of term

whew!
the term is about to end!
it's final examination's week.
sigh!

it seemed only yesterday when i lined up in the vice dean's office..
late enrollee as usual..

haha..

i remembered how indecisive i was.
thinking if i wanted to graduate this term or not.
very last minute indeed.
so, thanks to my "more than the usual" friend that guided me to the right decision.
sorry for the term jaipz, it's better than calling you weird! hehe..

thanks guys!
thank you jp, estelle, nd, etc for a nice term!~
estelle - for the slumber parties. pizzas. and hugs.
jp - food trips. health check. more food trips. and other trips.
nd - for the much needed slap, este, pat in the back!

greatly appreciated.

thanks for my seatmates in histciv for making me feel that i'm not alone.
true enough. i'm not the only one who nearly threw up laughing.

thanks for my groupmates in chemistry lab.
for the laughters. i didn't know chem can be fun!
*in your face 'physics for phun' guy' just kidding*
for the chemicals we mismixed, for the broken test tube, and for the 'early dismissal every meeting! *clever* hehe...

thank you genders! esp. to sir bob!
i always look forward to this class.
tnx martha for the lemon squares and brownies.

thank you filipi3 class.
for my inspiring prof, sir dex!
mahusay ang inyong pagkakaturo sa amin.
ang inyong klase ay isang malaking retorika!
salamat sa hindi pagttsek kaagad ng attendance.
salamat dahil parang on time ako most of the time.
dadalahin ko sa mahabang panahon ang mga natutunan...
nawa'y makatulong ako sa pagpapalago ng wika pilipino...

ano pa ba?
thank you for my new friends.
tnx for letting me take a glimpse of a care free life.

and for all those that passed by,
thanks for coloring my surroundings...
dark. light. green. even those in red *watch your temper..

okay, better study..
i don't want to repeat this speech next term...
ciao!